I am who You say I am

Lovely

Abigail Elyana

She is an angel, given by God to our little family

Named by her father and granpa

Abigail Elyana,  Father’s Joy – God Answers

Been waited for eight years

Moved by the prays of many friends, relatives and families

1-11-2013, the day she borned

2885 gr – 48 cm weight length

The promises to guide, teach, raise her, so that she can be blessed for many people

Served God The Father in many ways

Her smile and laugh make days shine and spark

Loved by everyone, be a rejoicer for her granny and granpa

Day by day, watching, teaching, guiding, raising by the guidance of Heavenly Father

Abby, you are loved.

“When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice” -  Old Sanskrit Proverb

Hari Ini, Tujuh Tahun Yang Lalu

Hari ini 7 tahun yg lalu, kuucapkan janjiku di hadapan Tuhan utk selalu menjagamu, selalu bersamamu didalam susah ataupun senang, suka ataupun duka, sehat ataupun sakit. Mempercayaimu dan mendukungmu, setia disisimu selalu. Dulu, sekarang dan sampai akhirnya nanti. Always love you.. Sri Susianni Pertiwi

Sobat dan Teman

 

Ada disisimu saat engkau membutuhkannya

Bukan untuk mengharapkan sesuatu sebagai imbalan

Ataupun balasan atas suatu perhatian

Ikhlas karena dia adalah seorang sobat

Tidak mengatur atau mendominasi satu sama lain

Menerima dia apa adanya

Karena itu yang membuatnya seseorang yang unik

Kalau belum menemukannya, jangan sebut dia sobat

Panggil dia teman

Kalau seorang teman, dia mengecewakanmu, itu wajar

Tidak perlu menjadi marah

Kalau sudah menyebutnya sobat, kita harus menerima dia apa adanya

Kesalahannya wajib kita benarkan, kita ingatkan

Karena kita peduli kepadanya

Seorang sobat tidak akan mengeluh

Seorang sobat kan ada kapan pun dibutuhkan

Seorang sobat kan ikhlas

Jadi, bila ada seseorang yang mengeluh kepada kita

Yang menyakiti kita, dia adalah teman, bukan sobat

Jangan terlalu bersedih karena itu

Semuanya butuh proses untuk mengubah teman menjadi sobat mu

Jalani saja prosesnya, pada akhirnya kita akan menemukan sobat sejati kita

Black dan White

Honestly, I was fall

For something that is new to me

Never do I thought this kind of feeling can be happened

A bizarre sensation, an illicit emotion

Thought it just a natural reaction, for a some truly relation

But, it’s getting out of control, a potential situation to ruin my purity

Foolish me to think this notion

Foolish me to continue this game

Foolish me to think that I can manage this situation

Love I have will lost forever

When trust is gone, it shall last forever

Is it worthed ?

And to think all about it

Honestly, loving you is forever

Foolish me to let you go

Foolish me to hurt your feeling

Foolish me to change what we have all this time

…………

Nothing can change my love for you

You are my angel

Love of my life

Grading Dilemma

Still thinking about what I've done in grading. One side, I think it's not educating the students, when I upgrade their score, but on the other side, I can't ignore their sacrifice to study. They go to campus at night and from along distance, back to their home late at night. Maybe in big cities, it's not a problem, but here, it is a some serious issue, there is no public transportation late at night. Above all, there is no infrastructure in supporting their studies at their neighborhood.
I want to give them not only a good score, but an excellent one. Transfer my knowledge, give an understanding, that's all I want. Now, I can understand how hard for an appraiser or a judge when they have to decide something.
The funny one when finally a lecturer issued their grade, still some students complaint and not satisfy about their grade. As a note, the lecturer already raised their score. They only want grade "A", at least "B". "C" is a failure, even actually they only deserved "D" or "E". They blamed their lecturer for their bad score, instead of self-introspection. Hehehe..
Finally, when I gave grade, there is something intriguing in my heart.

Happy New Year 2011

So many things happen in 2010. The laughter, the joy, the hard work and the blessing. Thanks God for everything you give to me, for the great achievements and experiences, for the family and for the friends. Guide me to keep pray and worship in any circumstances. 

I believe in 2011 it will be a year with New Hope, New Peace and New Happiness. Keep the smile, leave the tear. Think of joy, forget the fear. Hold the laugh, leave the pain. Be joyous, because it’s New Year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Apa Gunanya ?

Apa gunanya tinggal di rumah yang besar dengan fasilitas yang lengkap, tapi tidak nyaman untuk ditinggali;

Apa gunanya tinggal di kota besar, tapi tidak bisa menikmati semua fasilitas yang ada di kota tersebut;

Apa gunanya kita bersikap seperti orang dewasa, tetapi hidup dengan penuh penderitaan karena kedewasaan itu;

Apa gunanya berdoa jika hanya di bibir saja, tidak ada kehadiran hati saat mengucapkannya;

Apa gunanya kita bersungut-sungut, padahal hanya membuat perasaan semakin tidak nyaman;

Apa gunanya berpendidikan tinggi, tetapi tidak bisa dibagikan kepada yang lain;

Apa gunanya berbicara, berteriak, jika tidak ada yang mendengar;

Kedewasaan yang semu hanya menimbulkan penderitaan. Menjadi diri sendiri dan mensyukuri apapun yang terjadi adalah yang terbaik.

Sihite Ladies

My Wife, Sister and Sister In Law

For You Lord

For You Lord

For You Lord
I give my life
I give my heart

I give you my soul

I give you praise

Every breath that I take

There is You

Every step that I take

You guide me all the way

O Lord, have Your way in me

Why I Should Smile

Why I should smile.
Even this world is not friendly to me.
What I've done is meaningless to them.
I give my best, the result is the flame in my heart became the fire.
Covering the light inside of me.
Getting old than it should be, friends avoiding me.
Till I hear the voice of God.
Give me the true understanding about love and anger.
Proverbs 24:10 "If you faint in the day of adversity, your strength is small" and Proverbs 24:19 "Fret not because of evildoers, neither be envious of the wicked".
Unconditional love, do everything without hoping any reciprocation.
Exactly like I used to be a few years ago.
Not the true peace.. peace without smile.
Right now, the smile is very delightfull.
The enragement, keep smiling open the gate to the happiness.
Remembered one of the "Dewa" lyrics " Face everything with smile".
Old song that I understand the real meaning and one word "What other people think of you, is none of your business".
God is giving the answer right away, as soon as I decided to smile in every circumstances.
Disappointment and enragement if we face them with anger, we can't find the solution.
Face them with smile, and we will find the solution in a miracleous way, so keep smiling.

Mancing Maniak At Poncan Island, Sibolga

After been postponed for 2 weeks, finally we are going to Poncan Island, Sibolga. Ply the sea with Purse Seine over 30 GT; it doesn’t take an hour for the 21 of us to board at Poncan Island. After preparing our stuff, kids swimming and playing in white sand, we go directly to the dock to fish; meanwhile others burn the fish and prepare our lunch.

No patience in waiting the fish to be preserved because we are too late to arrive at Poncan Island.. aha.. Finally Mr. Binsar caught a fish, a small one but it’s better than nothing though. Yes, lunch is ready at last. It’s time to eat. Yummy..

After having lunch, we “the men” sail to the sea, fishing. Using the 30 GT Purse Seine, we arrived on the first spot. Unfortunately, we didn’t get any fish. Maybe the fish is not hungry yet or we are just an amateur, ha..ha..ha.. It’s only take 15 minutes for us on the first spot, then we go much further to the second spot.. Yei.. Mr. Binsar gets 3 more fish on the spot and finally I’ve got one. The others 3 of us are not fortune to catch any.

We are fishing for almost 2 hour, and then we get back to the shore to pick up our ladies and kids. We even not have an opportunity swimming in the ocean because the ladies and kids are too tired.

Ah… Goodbye Poncan, we’ll see you next month…. hopefully..

When I Old

Indonesian Version

When I old, no longer me in my old times
Understand me, be patience on me

When I drop vegetable gravy on my cloth, when I can't tied up my shoelace
Remember the times when I teach, guide you to do it

When I keep repeating the word that makes you boring
Be patience to listen, don't cut my utterance

When you are child, I've to tell and tell a story that I've tell you thousand times till you swung in dream

When I need you to bathing me

Don't blame me. Do you remember when you are a child how I persuading you to get a bath

When I am fuzzy in facing the new things and modern technology
Don't laugh at me
Contemplate when I am answering all your "why" in patience at that time

When my legs are weak to walk
Give me your young and strong hand to help me walking
As in your child times I guide you to step till you can walk

When I am forgetting our topic
Give me some time to remembering it
Actually, the topic is not important for me, so long as thou reside in my side to listen, I'll be happy

When you look at me getting old, don't sad
Understand me, support me like I do when you are learning about life
I was guiding you tread this way of life, now accompany me to the end of my road
Give me your love and patience, I'll accept it with the grateful smile
In my smile, I plant all my love for you

The Sun, The Sky and The Earth

The Sun over the sky, give his warmth and light to the earth through the sky

The warmth of the earth gives life to the son

The son soul and heart are calm with love for the wind blows

The sky cover the earth from the sunbeam, give the color of life

May The Sun gives his warmth light, don’t thy outraging fire burn the sky and the earth
Gives your warm light, makes the sky and the earth smile in immortality

So the son of the sky and earth sings joyfully fur the presence of them

I swear to you
I will always be there for you - there's nothin' I won't do
I promise you all my life I will live for you
We will make it through, Forever we will be
Together you and me
N' when I hold ya - nothing can compare
With all my heart - ya know I'll always be right there

I believe in us, nothin' else could ever mean so much
You're the one I trust our time has come - we're not two people
Now we are one - you're second to none
Forever - we will be
Together - a family
The more I get to know ya - nothin' can compare
With all my heart ya you know I'll always be right there

Forever we will be
Together - just you and me
The more I get to know ya, the more I really care
With all of my heart, ya know I'll always be
Ya know I really love ya, ya nothin' can compare
For all my life - ya know I,ll always be.. right there

I'll Always Be Right There - Bryan Adams